When All Is Lost

So, I've obviously been slacking on the post, so I will give you a brief overview with what's been going on...

My ex is done for good, no communcation no nothing; even though we broke up we used to still at the very least text every other day. Long story short, I was manipulated and it has scarred me so bad the wounds will take years to heal; don't ever fall in love, by far the worst idea ever!

I've lost three of the closest girls that I've ever had in my life, over a new years eve argument. Try mending a friendship when you live 4 hours apart and 3 people refuse to see why you got so upset; not exactly the easiest thing to do.

No try finding replacements; impossible! How do you replace a 1.5 yr relationship, or a 4 yr friendship, you just don't! I mean eventually but there is not quick fix to this and that's what sucks! I guess all of the losses has made this move even more real, I am all alone and it's sad!

On a positive note, I have two dates this week with two amazing people. One is one that I've been talking to for a couple of weeks now who we'll refer to as J. This is technically date #3 with J and I am kind of excited; date #1 went a little too fast, so we're slowing things down a bit which is good, especially given my circumstances, I am not ready to move so quickly just yet.

Also we have date wirh the Hawaiian I met several weeks ago, mentioned In a previous post. The Hawaiian is super amazing, we have been talking recently now for a couple of days and we have a lot in common.

My good old friend Quincy came over the new years break and introduced me to Jon someone I already knew but not that well and jon lives here in DC, so we have been hanging out and he is definitely my new hang out buddy here in DC. So now I have several friends here to connect with, but starting new friendships still have those awkward quirks in the beginning because you can never still fully be yourself. Man it's hard starting from scratch again.

But I have to say, for someone coming here knowing absolutely no one, I thinknits have done fairly well for myself here in the month I have been here, and it's only going up from here!

Sorry I haven't been posting more often, NYE break was just a crazy period, I'm currently updating from my phone, so when I update with my computer I'll have way more details to add then!

Happy New Years!